Monday, November 24, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Confuse! Refusal of self confidence.
I don't know.
I don't really know.
Deritamu ada hikmahnya. Apa saja yang tidak mengikut kehendak hati, itulah derita.
Theres a reason for every suffering. Suffer is anything that against our desired.
Where should I begin my blog. Its a direct story told by heart.
Once again, I had an exam, everyone was just so different than me. They were able grasp something, whereby me, could understand a thing, its like I'm following blind without knowing why.
Everybody was like better than me, and I don't me to envy them because they are better than me but they are way better than me, I'm afraid that I might be left alone, suffering alone in this world, looking around finding something to cling on. But hey lets take it, its life after all.
I was shocked that they able to do such thing with few struggle, and then some able to do it confidently. Astonishingly, why am I feel drop-out so suddenly. Maybe I meet the best of all, I don't really saw the true picture, but its crystal clear, that they able to make it best, but not me. I try to have faith and regain confidence in what I do. Whats in our heart its what we wishes for, so please, make our heart pure.
I might not care about my life, myself, but its doesn't mean I lose hope and faith to Allah, I still hope that we all will granted Husnul Khatimah (the Good End). My life kinda comflicated, but no bother its just small particle of data of people surrounding me, like my friend said, "without us, you are nothing". Its might be true, because without anyone acknowledge my existen, then I won't even exist, but yet Allah might acknowledge my existen, as we all submit to Him and only Him, InsyaAllah. La haula Quwwatau ila billah (All the strenghts are His and only His), we are nothing without Allah.
Here come pin point of my life, my future. Look at my academic status, I'm not in state that I can have an option to choose. I taking life science in Matriculation College, but to be accurate, I'm suppose to be an account student or physical science student this due to my SPM result (1A for Account Principle, 2A for Physic, 3B for Additional Maths), then why am I taking life science (SPM: 4B for Biology), its a daring decision, I still don't know why, maybe I thought I can become a doctor for some reason, but with my present attitude? I must be dreaming, having day dreaming all the time.
This all make me lost confidence in what I should in the future, to be honest Im not even good in everything, up until now, I just let Allah decide everything for me, I don't know if thats right, even when taking exam, for some reason, I really don't know what to answer, Allah saved me all the time, I'm not capable of anything. I still don't know, if this is alright. Few more week, I have to choose my future, and still I had big doubt on what I should take, one wrong move can make my life misrable, I know because of my previous exprience, I know I should take physical science but maybe Allah had decided that I should take life science for some reason, its probably the way of teaching me, I don't know, its confusing.
I would like to be in creative field, probably research and development field, but thats only interest without any sharpen talent. So far i haven't found my true talent, all I know I have an abstract mind, looking into abstract info, sometimes my understanding are not even valid for reality.
Erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I just wrote something weird today, maybe its because I don't sleep yet, and my hand writing by heart. It show how confuse I am. Its weird! Don't read.
tear of fate.
I don't really know.
Deritamu ada hikmahnya. Apa saja yang tidak mengikut kehendak hati, itulah derita.
Theres a reason for every suffering. Suffer is anything that against our desired.
Where should I begin my blog. Its a direct story told by heart.
Once again, I had an exam, everyone was just so different than me. They were able grasp something, whereby me, could understand a thing, its like I'm following blind without knowing why.
Everybody was like better than me, and I don't me to envy them because they are better than me but they are way better than me, I'm afraid that I might be left alone, suffering alone in this world, looking around finding something to cling on. But hey lets take it, its life after all.
I was shocked that they able to do such thing with few struggle, and then some able to do it confidently. Astonishingly, why am I feel drop-out so suddenly. Maybe I meet the best of all, I don't really saw the true picture, but its crystal clear, that they able to make it best, but not me. I try to have faith and regain confidence in what I do. Whats in our heart its what we wishes for, so please, make our heart pure.
I might not care about my life, myself, but its doesn't mean I lose hope and faith to Allah, I still hope that we all will granted Husnul Khatimah (the Good End). My life kinda comflicated, but no bother its just small particle of data of people surrounding me, like my friend said, "without us, you are nothing". Its might be true, because without anyone acknowledge my existen, then I won't even exist, but yet Allah might acknowledge my existen, as we all submit to Him and only Him, InsyaAllah. La haula Quwwatau ila billah (All the strenghts are His and only His), we are nothing without Allah.
Here come pin point of my life, my future. Look at my academic status, I'm not in state that I can have an option to choose. I taking life science in Matriculation College, but to be accurate, I'm suppose to be an account student or physical science student this due to my SPM result (1A for Account Principle, 2A for Physic, 3B for Additional Maths), then why am I taking life science (SPM: 4B for Biology), its a daring decision, I still don't know why, maybe I thought I can become a doctor for some reason, but with my present attitude? I must be dreaming, having day dreaming all the time.
This all make me lost confidence in what I should in the future, to be honest Im not even good in everything, up until now, I just let Allah decide everything for me, I don't know if thats right, even when taking exam, for some reason, I really don't know what to answer, Allah saved me all the time, I'm not capable of anything. I still don't know, if this is alright. Few more week, I have to choose my future, and still I had big doubt on what I should take, one wrong move can make my life misrable, I know because of my previous exprience, I know I should take physical science but maybe Allah had decided that I should take life science for some reason, its probably the way of teaching me, I don't know, its confusing.
I would like to be in creative field, probably research and development field, but thats only interest without any sharpen talent. So far i haven't found my true talent, all I know I have an abstract mind, looking into abstract info, sometimes my understanding are not even valid for reality.
Erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I just wrote something weird today, maybe its because I don't sleep yet, and my hand writing by heart. It show how confuse I am. Its weird! Don't read.
tear of fate.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Gud bye kml
Hmn KML is over insyaAllah
long time i havent update this blog.
lets talk some what sort of things just happen to me, first bring back all the bags from kml to home, and yeah? what was i doing, looking back, see all the familliar faces, but dont have guts to start the conversation. well i do some, just get talk to some. weird thing happen, i happen to talk to a guy from kml, i dont realize he were talking to a family of kmlian, u see they all nice people when they were leaving, the shake my hands too, the weird thing the girls which about same my age try to shake my hand.. and i was...
ok then, probably that just for the last, i though, its weird, but the days just being like that, they all so nice, i could use any words, metting people, by just a smile, i make u feels like u had known them for years, i wish i had known all this people and talks something weird with them.
gud bye labuan, gud bye kml, gud bye all the sarawakian, gud bye all the tawauan, gud bye all the lahad datuan, gud bye all the sandakanan, gud bye all the people of non-kotakinabalu...lol okey, because im in kk, theres little chance i might able to meet people in these area. guess whats, probably no because i dont think i like to go out side just for a walk or whatever unnecessary reason.
for some weird reason.............. i just could finish whats i hadnt done..., i felt pity to my freinds and to my self... i just hope Allah forgives me. Hidayah is all He's.
i gonna miss all of them, pity, insyaAllah fate will reunite us together. (Ya Allah lindungilah aku dari Takdir yang buruk yang telah engkau tentukan). I ask protection from Allah before everything else. I get some feeling that I might be able to meet them someday, insyaAllah.. but maybe.. oh well i really... I dont even wanting to extend such relationship, but its probably because, I like (love) all of them (hehe, and im serious)... but i maybe, i leave everything to Allah... Lets Allah decide which one should it be... lala
overthetime, people might just forget who i was, who they were. I theres little chance people might remember, theres nothing that will last forever, its just fate(eh this words too familiar to me). One some degree... i do understand that, life is not that simple, i tend to look away when things get worse, and walk all alone into darkness. eh??? whats this all about.
i miss all the tawauan, and its language, we use to talk in their slangs, funny we were able to adapt to such slangs, my friend able to adapt to bruneian slangs, erghh its seem hard for me to follow, i think i can follow how the chinese talk, indian, kadazan-dusun, murut, suluk, bajau, indon, omm, and so on, on which i usually meet at kk, but the bruneian is hard to adapt maybe i need to go study in brunei, hei brunei oso have university u know, ahu bah haha.
the sarawakian language of malay, seem to have adapted the bruneian language more than sabahan adapating it. sik ada la, hehe. maybe because sabah was not under brunei for such long because we were under sulu sultanate.
why do i talk much about this.............
maybe kml is good place, its a place where al the mighty mind gather, funny after so much geniuses, we still unable to build airplane... theres no leader, there no leader to reunite all those brain together linking it to form a gigantic trafic of mind, plus tiny little traffic of information in our brain that turning the galaxy railway into small little molecule of life cell.
in kml, influence and lotsa influence change every single person, to be good, just good, or awesome and bad, or just alcoholic drunken master, and so on, i met a person who had never pray jumaat, i met a person who so obsess with his jemaah movement, i met person who so obsess with some weird thing. why? why? why? do we look that other are sooooo wrong when we never revised our action justificationly.
i met girls who friendly, yea like to smile, like that smile (astagfirullah al azim), i met girl who protect what they should see, they dont even look a man when talking to them, we they all nice, i just like to see them wearing the tudung labuh, i like this type of girl (-.-)
i begin to learn and confuse more about aqidah... bad news,.... but for time being just follow whats imam As-Syafie does, well i dont know, i just do what people does, maybe thats the correct way, isnt that suppose to mean, taqlik buta... follow something blindly.. no........ thats not the right way... then?
leaving all the bad side, i do remember my kuliahan, haha... nice, our row all most all guys, infront and back are all girls, we seldomly talks to them, yeah thats kinda nice, we do know each other better, but some my says that such relationship might no be so beneficial. there nothing worth to much, but i do know if we take good care of our self and distant, on which me limits our self from thing that we shouldnt, its all alright. they all are so nice.
the tutorialan, are all so friend, eventhough they all are naughty some times, i do hate to take a picture, for some reason.. donno maybe i dont have guts for that. plus, i dont want to take a picture with just me and a girl -.-, girls think back, would u want ur husband to have a picture with other girls? absolutely not!!! but for the sake of friendship i might take some picture with them with some distant not too near, sorry, i have my own principle, please do respect that.
moreover.......................... i miss u all, im so sad.... oh well, just forget about me, i think thats just better for all of us.
for the sake of Allah. hope that Allah will grant us Husnul Khatimah (the good end).
long time i havent update this blog.
lets talk some what sort of things just happen to me, first bring back all the bags from kml to home, and yeah? what was i doing, looking back, see all the familliar faces, but dont have guts to start the conversation. well i do some, just get talk to some. weird thing happen, i happen to talk to a guy from kml, i dont realize he were talking to a family of kmlian, u see they all nice people when they were leaving, the shake my hands too, the weird thing the girls which about same my age try to shake my hand.. and i was...
ok then, probably that just for the last, i though, its weird, but the days just being like that, they all so nice, i could use any words, metting people, by just a smile, i make u feels like u had known them for years, i wish i had known all this people and talks something weird with them.
gud bye labuan, gud bye kml, gud bye all the sarawakian, gud bye all the tawauan, gud bye all the lahad datuan, gud bye all the sandakanan, gud bye all the people of non-kotakinabalu...lol okey, because im in kk, theres little chance i might able to meet people in these area. guess whats, probably no because i dont think i like to go out side just for a walk or whatever unnecessary reason.
for some weird reason.............. i just could finish whats i hadnt done..., i felt pity to my freinds and to my self... i just hope Allah forgives me. Hidayah is all He's.
i gonna miss all of them, pity, insyaAllah fate will reunite us together. (Ya Allah lindungilah aku dari Takdir yang buruk yang telah engkau tentukan). I ask protection from Allah before everything else. I get some feeling that I might be able to meet them someday, insyaAllah.. but maybe.. oh well i really... I dont even wanting to extend such relationship, but its probably because, I like (love) all of them (hehe, and im serious)... but i maybe, i leave everything to Allah... Lets Allah decide which one should it be... lala
overthetime, people might just forget who i was, who they were. I theres little chance people might remember, theres nothing that will last forever, its just fate(eh this words too familiar to me). One some degree... i do understand that, life is not that simple, i tend to look away when things get worse, and walk all alone into darkness. eh??? whats this all about.
i miss all the tawauan, and its language, we use to talk in their slangs, funny we were able to adapt to such slangs, my friend able to adapt to bruneian slangs, erghh its seem hard for me to follow, i think i can follow how the chinese talk, indian, kadazan-dusun, murut, suluk, bajau, indon, omm, and so on, on which i usually meet at kk, but the bruneian is hard to adapt maybe i need to go study in brunei, hei brunei oso have university u know, ahu bah haha.
the sarawakian language of malay, seem to have adapted the bruneian language more than sabahan adapating it. sik ada la, hehe. maybe because sabah was not under brunei for such long because we were under sulu sultanate.
why do i talk much about this.............
maybe kml is good place, its a place where al the mighty mind gather, funny after so much geniuses, we still unable to build airplane... theres no leader, there no leader to reunite all those brain together linking it to form a gigantic trafic of mind, plus tiny little traffic of information in our brain that turning the galaxy railway into small little molecule of life cell.
in kml, influence and lotsa influence change every single person, to be good, just good, or awesome and bad, or just alcoholic drunken master, and so on, i met a person who had never pray jumaat, i met a person who so obsess with his jemaah movement, i met person who so obsess with some weird thing. why? why? why? do we look that other are sooooo wrong when we never revised our action justificationly.
i met girls who friendly, yea like to smile, like that smile (astagfirullah al azim), i met girl who protect what they should see, they dont even look a man when talking to them, we they all nice, i just like to see them wearing the tudung labuh, i like this type of girl (-.-)
i begin to learn and confuse more about aqidah... bad news,.... but for time being just follow whats imam As-Syafie does, well i dont know, i just do what people does, maybe thats the correct way, isnt that suppose to mean, taqlik buta... follow something blindly.. no........ thats not the right way... then?
leaving all the bad side, i do remember my kuliahan, haha... nice, our row all most all guys, infront and back are all girls, we seldomly talks to them, yeah thats kinda nice, we do know each other better, but some my says that such relationship might no be so beneficial. there nothing worth to much, but i do know if we take good care of our self and distant, on which me limits our self from thing that we shouldnt, its all alright. they all are so nice.
the tutorialan, are all so friend, eventhough they all are naughty some times, i do hate to take a picture, for some reason.. donno maybe i dont have guts for that. plus, i dont want to take a picture with just me and a girl -.-, girls think back, would u want ur husband to have a picture with other girls? absolutely not!!! but for the sake of friendship i might take some picture with them with some distant not too near, sorry, i have my own principle, please do respect that.
moreover.......................... i miss u all, im so sad.... oh well, just forget about me, i think thats just better for all of us.
for the sake of Allah. hope that Allah will grant us Husnul Khatimah (the good end).
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Walk for Allah
2 days and half.
On Jan 19 2008, perhaps the day that turning my life.
Everyday was almost a sunnah. It is the way of life.
"Theres no gods but Allah, and Muhammad s.a.w. is His messenger."
Rely one fully to only Allah, not to His creation.
On Jan 19 2008, perhaps the day that turning my life.
Everyday was almost a sunnah. It is the way of life.
"Theres no gods but Allah, and Muhammad s.a.w. is His messenger."
Rely one fully to only Allah, not to His creation.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Coincident of Fate
Destined fate.
Coincident? or Fate? or maybe it is Coincident of Fate. But who know, I also don't know, just let it be.
Everytime, I think, Im getting far... far away, as much as I hate been distant from other, yet it is as much as I love to be distant from other. I just love it whenever I'm alone, but I tend to feel lonely, its like I'm needing somebody else around me to support me, but is that really what I want? I'm totally confuse.
It is probably just a coincident that I meet them, but then again I do believe in fate. My mind just struggling hard to think that why I always meet such people, is it because I'm just like them? I try to not admit it, but sometimes I do found some qualities resemble of me.
We are all alike.
Coincident? or Fate? or maybe it is Coincident of Fate. But who know, I also don't know, just let it be.
Everytime, I think, Im getting far... far away, as much as I hate been distant from other, yet it is as much as I love to be distant from other. I just love it whenever I'm alone, but I tend to feel lonely, its like I'm needing somebody else around me to support me, but is that really what I want? I'm totally confuse.
It is probably just a coincident that I meet them, but then again I do believe in fate. My mind just struggling hard to think that why I always meet such people, is it because I'm just like them? I try to not admit it, but sometimes I do found some qualities resemble of me.
We are all alike.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Examination Week
My mind was just thinking hard. How stress can I be, its just an exam. Well its not just an exam, its an exam that will determine my future.
A night with intense pressure. Sudden words, abrupt my hope and spirit, not like I care, but why now? I don't really care at first, but my heart keep telling the opposite, why do I care? I know its going to end like this, I should have know it. I realize, I was been betrayed.
I couldn't study well, luckily the first day is just English Language. I try to regain new spirit and hope. I try to forget everything. I just hope I can... and it ended. I don't even care anymore.
Now, I can just accept the fact. I can no longer be the same. I will keep in mind that I'm not an enemy, the world is not my enemy. Whenever I faces difficulties, I must always return to Allah.
Adversity will only make me strong, as it teach me how to begin and end.
A night with intense pressure. Sudden words, abrupt my hope and spirit, not like I care, but why now? I don't really care at first, but my heart keep telling the opposite, why do I care? I know its going to end like this, I should have know it. I realize, I was been betrayed.
I couldn't study well, luckily the first day is just English Language. I try to regain new spirit and hope. I try to forget everything. I just hope I can... and it ended. I don't even care anymore.
Now, I can just accept the fact. I can no longer be the same. I will keep in mind that I'm not an enemy, the world is not my enemy. Whenever I faces difficulties, I must always return to Allah.
Adversity will only make me strong, as it teach me how to begin and end.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Her stare
As I walk.
I look around, to explore as I venture into alienated world. I do realize this is not my world. Its a must for me.
While looking at a corner, where the bulky phones lies, a girl covered by ill desired, captivated my eyes for a moment. At first, I could not recognize her, my mind was full of ill thought about her. But her eyes, was quite different, as much as shes afraid of something, she went pale, paused in her own world. She stared at me blurly as her eyes follows me. What could shes been thinking?
Then, again, we meet again. Its become so clear, shes a girl that I had known for years. Perhaps its a fate? how come I always end up meeting her, no its probably just a coincident, I just hope so.
Pity, sadly her voice could not reach me. How I wish I could, but I can no longer accept it, well its just hard for me to accept. Hopefull her life will be lite up, and shes will find her own way, the right way.
I look around, to explore as I venture into alienated world. I do realize this is not my world. Its a must for me.
While looking at a corner, where the bulky phones lies, a girl covered by ill desired, captivated my eyes for a moment. At first, I could not recognize her, my mind was full of ill thought about her. But her eyes, was quite different, as much as shes afraid of something, she went pale, paused in her own world. She stared at me blurly as her eyes follows me. What could shes been thinking?
Then, again, we meet again. Its become so clear, shes a girl that I had known for years. Perhaps its a fate? how come I always end up meeting her, no its probably just a coincident, I just hope so.
Pity, sadly her voice could not reach me. How I wish I could, but I can no longer accept it, well its just hard for me to accept. Hopefull her life will be lite up, and shes will find her own way, the right way.
I just hate it.
I wonder.
People all around me, are just wanderer. We are just wanderer. We are all alike. We want to be understand, we want somebody to understand us. Its just frustrating. People seem just want to be selfish. I just hate it. Why can they just try to understand other people. Its easy. Simply by keep quite and observes other. Cant that be hard, can it?
They will never understand. Though, its sad, I think I better make my leave. I just wandering around. Looking across they sky wanting to be found. Perhap, someday, light will cover this emptiness with hope and honesty. I just hope it will happen.
Hey don't come back, cause it will only make my heart fill with hatred. Because I just hate it, sorry. Its not my way. I have my own life, I have my own way. Its just how I live my life. I'm sorry, because I just hate it.
People all around me, are just wanderer. We are just wanderer. We are all alike. We want to be understand, we want somebody to understand us. Its just frustrating. People seem just want to be selfish. I just hate it. Why can they just try to understand other people. Its easy. Simply by keep quite and observes other. Cant that be hard, can it?
They will never understand. Though, its sad, I think I better make my leave. I just wandering around. Looking across they sky wanting to be found. Perhap, someday, light will cover this emptiness with hope and honesty. I just hope it will happen.
Hey don't come back, cause it will only make my heart fill with hatred. Because I just hate it, sorry. Its not my way. I have my own life, I have my own way. Its just how I live my life. I'm sorry, because I just hate it.
Friday, October 19, 2007
What is ....?
Raya... Eid Mubarak. Okay you can eat and have fun now.
Exam... Final of Sem 1. Okay you can stress and tension now.
Holiday... 2 weeks long free(really?). Okay you can relax and sleep now.
Exam... Final of Sem 1. Okay you can stress and tension now.
Holiday... 2 weeks long free(really?). Okay you can relax and sleep now.
Lets Make It Possible
Im going back,
Im going to take all that belong to me,
I know it,
Because its belong to me.
Im going to take all that belong to me,
I know it,
Because its belong to me.
How come its hard?
Now, I know life is hard, So?
Life goes on. Simply live with it with smile. Lala
Sometimes, in sadness and despair, theres a light that will light up our life. Whats matter, its how we appreciate our life and live with it.
I heard this before, "It does not matter on how you were born, whats matter is how you live", we just have to live no matter what, because thats what we are for.
Life goes on. Simply live with it with smile. Lala
Sometimes, in sadness and despair, theres a light that will light up our life. Whats matter, its how we appreciate our life and live with it.
I heard this before, "It does not matter on how you were born, whats matter is how you live", we just have to live no matter what, because thats what we are for.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
KML
okay, its just another experiment, nothing to be serious about.
KML Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan
LMC Labuan Matriculation College
4Flat
Flat4
CGPA 4
H1T4
H1 Lecture
T4 Tutorial Class
Sabah
Sarawak
Labuan
The Rest Of Malaysia
Surau
HEP Hal Ehwal Pelajar
MP Menara Pentadbiran
DK Dewan Kuliah - Lecture Hall
BT Bilik Tutorial - Tutorial Room
MK Makmal Kimia - Chemistry Lab
MB Makmal Biologi - Biology Lab
MF Makmal Fizik - Physic Lab
DM Dewan Mutiara
KML Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan
LMC Labuan Matriculation College
4Flat
Flat4
CGPA 4
H1T4
H1 Lecture
T4 Tutorial Class
Sabah
Sarawak
Labuan
The Rest Of Malaysia
Surau
HEP Hal Ehwal Pelajar
MP Menara Pentadbiran
DK Dewan Kuliah - Lecture Hall
BT Bilik Tutorial - Tutorial Room
MK Makmal Kimia - Chemistry Lab
MB Makmal Biologi - Biology Lab
MF Makmal Fizik - Physic Lab
DM Dewan Mutiara
Monday, October 15, 2007
His life
I do remember,
A promise, everything going to be easy,
I know, but I'm not so sure,
Its just a false promise.
I went into deep thought,
My mind was blank, its filled with wisdom,
It remind me of who I was to be,
But its not really who I want to be.
An easy life, perhaps its just a dream,
A dream that only be reach with false hope,
Afterall, we can just keep hoping,
We are just a human.
A hope, that pass from a person to another,
Now, it pass to somebody that desired it not,
Why would he took all the burden for the sake of other?
He's alone are not capable.
Life is boredom,
Having a grunge way,
Not knowing the path,
Its an abstract pathway.
He do have a freedom to choose,
But its all just a talk,
Not even close to real world,
Can this world be honest for just a moment.
Somebody admire even idolize him,
Hes a man that not deserving at all,
Stop it, you hurting him alot,
He rather be forgotten than to let other despair.
Now that you know,
Why not just stop?
Thats all,
Thank you.
A promise, everything going to be easy,
I know, but I'm not so sure,
Its just a false promise.
I went into deep thought,
My mind was blank, its filled with wisdom,
It remind me of who I was to be,
But its not really who I want to be.
An easy life, perhaps its just a dream,
A dream that only be reach with false hope,
Afterall, we can just keep hoping,
We are just a human.
A hope, that pass from a person to another,
Now, it pass to somebody that desired it not,
Why would he took all the burden for the sake of other?
He's alone are not capable.
Life is boredom,
Having a grunge way,
Not knowing the path,
Its an abstract pathway.
He do have a freedom to choose,
But its all just a talk,
Not even close to real world,
Can this world be honest for just a moment.
Somebody admire even idolize him,
Hes a man that not deserving at all,
Stop it, you hurting him alot,
He rather be forgotten than to let other despair.
Now that you know,
Why not just stop?
Thats all,
Thank you.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
eh??? whats this... its just one of the possibilities.
lets try this,
a world with despair full with false hope.
we are still live in it.
life still go onwe are trying to change the future
its a light that leads somebody to enternal despair
Once a while,
i do think that my life is just that, no idea.
oh great, i dont think so lah
i afraid that i might make other despair,
i hope they can forget me.
Im nobody afterall.
can mind alone believe what its not capable of.
at the moment i can only express this heart.
i dont think that life is just what i want.
please be logical but logical alone stand on some basis, atleast with abit of mind.
care not but we are all alone.
i just like it be what it is.
now again, why are we care so much for this world.
everyday we hope for the best, something better out of nothing, we just human, we are trying our best but we are still human.
thing just keep repeating itself.
why why why!!! but i dont really carelah.
after life had end, not because the hope for light had gone, its just light dont choose somebody to be his.
adamant for future, are just suffering eternal forsaken.
thats how it should be, and its a... possibility of a life.
a world with despair full with false hope.
we are still live in it.
life still go onwe are trying to change the future
its a light that leads somebody to enternal despair
Once a while,
i do think that my life is just that, no idea.
oh great, i dont think so lah
i afraid that i might make other despair,
i hope they can forget me.
Im nobody afterall.
can mind alone believe what its not capable of.
at the moment i can only express this heart.
i dont think that life is just what i want.
please be logical but logical alone stand on some basis, atleast with abit of mind.
care not but we are all alone.
i just like it be what it is.
now again, why are we care so much for this world.
everyday we hope for the best, something better out of nothing, we just human, we are trying our best but we are still human.
thing just keep repeating itself.
why why why!!! but i dont really carelah.
after life had end, not because the hope for light had gone, its just light dont choose somebody to be his.
adamant for future, are just suffering eternal forsaken.
thats how it should be, and its a... possibility of a life.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Astonishing
Sometimes, when we write, we thought it to be just normal but when people read, its probably the most plausible words.
We often thought that thing its just normal but thing was different when other look at it. Astonishing, it is perhaps the most wonderful event.
As we play along, the words sieve through our ear, its captivate our imagination of thought and laid rest in it, the dark world was then feel with hope and encouragement. Its the wisdom of words.
A man with a great words, are the one to be watch, he just alone talking, for there are abstract nature of him. Yet, words alone are not vivid proofs.
We often thought that thing its just normal but thing was different when other look at it. Astonishing, it is perhaps the most wonderful event.
As we play along, the words sieve through our ear, its captivate our imagination of thought and laid rest in it, the dark world was then feel with hope and encouragement. Its the wisdom of words.
A man with a great words, are the one to be watch, he just alone talking, for there are abstract nature of him. Yet, words alone are not vivid proofs.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
sign
We live, We hope for the best. We are the best but it doesnt mean our life are the best.
I been thinking why must we be bonded with fate. We are so sad because when something bad happen, when we meet some people and everything we desired not. But what can we do, its all ready our fate. It happen. We just have to accept it. We accepting it meaning we have faith to Oneness, we giving all ourselve to Him, and at the same we obey and work for the best and hope for the best.
I been thinking why must we be bonded with fate. We are so sad because when something bad happen, when we meet some people and everything we desired not. But what can we do, its all ready our fate. It happen. We just have to accept it. We accepting it meaning we have faith to Oneness, we giving all ourselve to Him, and at the same we obey and work for the best and hope for the best.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
The world of Mine
for some extent I feel as if i gone far away but further behind and left behind far away eventhough I had been in front for quite sometime, its probably it is I that don't know.
If it is my destiny then, I probably give it all to it but no theres room for me to change, in any ways possible. This world really need some changes. A world we live a world where we die.
A generation that was destined to be a leader, now are begin to corrupt, could it be the end. We could only hope for the best but can we change the world with our hand? No.
"Kerana Kita Bodoh, Kita dipinjak.." Its because our stupidy ppl look down at us. If only every body know each and each of our jobs and duties. Nothing could harm this fragile earth. but Sorry we live in this corrupt world.
I begin to reliaze see more deeper, I felt it is hard in here but sorry I could only work on it hard and try to be achievious, but I'm not victor.
How can theres such a thing as a perpect system? Do human trust a system than comman sense? Is it the right of democracy to shape the world? Why do enslave our self to a system made by human? Foolish of us. Greed.
Society that judge thing from their perspective, accept only what the society like and reject incommon, why do society act suprior to other? Eventhough their are all alike. What kind of comman sense is that.
Oh great. theres yet another plot but no one care, its just another plot. I don't know. Why do I write all this?
Its a great thing I had learnt here and its a good thing thing that I'm not there to be. Stress, I'm sorry matric is not for weak but for those who strive hard and smart.
Why we keep sending our children far away land, are things here not good enough? its been going on quite awhile already but no, nobody seem to know whats their duties.
If it is my destiny then, I probably give it all to it but no theres room for me to change, in any ways possible. This world really need some changes. A world we live a world where we die.
A generation that was destined to be a leader, now are begin to corrupt, could it be the end. We could only hope for the best but can we change the world with our hand? No.
"Kerana Kita Bodoh, Kita dipinjak.." Its because our stupidy ppl look down at us. If only every body know each and each of our jobs and duties. Nothing could harm this fragile earth. but Sorry we live in this corrupt world.
I begin to reliaze see more deeper, I felt it is hard in here but sorry I could only work on it hard and try to be achievious, but I'm not victor.
How can theres such a thing as a perpect system? Do human trust a system than comman sense? Is it the right of democracy to shape the world? Why do enslave our self to a system made by human? Foolish of us. Greed.
Society that judge thing from their perspective, accept only what the society like and reject incommon, why do society act suprior to other? Eventhough their are all alike. What kind of comman sense is that.
Oh great. theres yet another plot but no one care, its just another plot. I don't know. Why do I write all this?
Its a great thing I had learnt here and its a good thing thing that I'm not there to be. Stress, I'm sorry matric is not for weak but for those who strive hard and smart.
Why we keep sending our children far away land, are things here not good enough? its been going on quite awhile already but no, nobody seem to know whats their duties.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Perspective
Malaysian Matriculation is hard!!! It is not for the weak students. But it is for the good students and hard working students. I can't cope with all this thing. If it is slow in progress I can still study slow and steady but no its hard to catch up with everything here.
ahh great I can't focus here. so then I can't write more.
ahh great I can't focus here. so then I can't write more.
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