Nostalgia

I just couldn't bear, I couldn't stand it, my mind is fine but my heart isn't, my mind start thinking deep without my approval. I just could get it. It's the only thing that I want to forget. It keep repeating it's self to me. The more I look to the connector of the past, the more I fell to his traps. Much more likely it's going to eat me.

The past really hate me. or It's just me who hate the past.

I don't know. I'm not in dilemma.

Again?

Owh, look like I halted posting for quite sometimes already, sorry about that. Well if theres somebody who read my blog.

I noticed that, my writting containts many error and grammatically error. Even worst, it's sometimes mean nothing at all. Sorry about that. I will keep that just as it be, so it will remind me on how I was doing at that time.

Let's talk about whats going on...?

Not really, I still who I were. I still have not done what I should've done long time ago. Plus, its a bit hard for me to uses computer these day. It's getting frustrating. but Nevermind it's just okay.

Weird, I think, I should've alot of thing to says. but It's seem like always. I'm out of contants.

Frustrating

I can't take it anymore, I need to reformat this computer. Opening a server meaning opening a hole in my network. Nevermind.

I had enough with wikipedia, I mean, do those people over there know what they are writing? Over the time, I found that most wikipedia are using wikipedia for their own good. World domination? That's so absurd. How stupid can a person write on article base on ignorance writer? Yup but I do know, this kind of people won't have a peace life. Just hope.

Everything you write, it's you responsiblity, it's goes against somebody, it's going to against you someday.

Let's take this, wikipedia is not for everybody, it's only for those who can think right and do the right kind of thing. Well, nowaday even the ignorance can write, so what that's their point of view, wikipedia is for the natural, the right stuff only!

Do what you want, later, don't regret, for what you had done.

It's just a words

Man may desire for peace, but it is his destiny to fight. He cannot escape his fate to fight, and to die. So long as man retains his humanity, he will continue to fight.

Unknown

New Year New Hope

Target for new year? There is so much thing to improve, I'm still in dilemma. What was the dilemma? I need to do php coding, make money online, and thinking for new contents everyday for my blog and blog somemore.

Let me repeat something for this year,
oil price is stabled;
Saddam Hssein no longer alive and Bush is still doing his peace keeping operation;
youtube revolutionize the internet and google bought youtube;
myspace open the space for exploitation and opportunities.

I think that's about everything that I can remember, so my targets for this year is
rememberize the Quran;
atleast make money through Adsense;
write so much articles;
gain more and more knowledges;
blogging blogging.

Let's talk about the day of Eid Adha.

On the morning of Eid Adha, I went to mosque, it's about late when I came there, almost all the place is been populated by my muslim relatives, there some pray in the road which was not made for praying, and just pray infront of dirty shoes, it's kinda bad, but nevermind, I like the way it goes. Sometimes, I wonder, where did all this people came from, I mean like when solat tarawith ( Solat in ramadhan ) , there's not many people like this.

Well, afterall, it's Eid Adha, where all the muslim gathered and strenghten the relationship between muslim. But the funny thing is, eventhough muslim are all related to each other, there's quite few that's know the person which pray beside them, and not many are will to ask about each other, even worst, they afraid that other may thing something funny about the person. Even me, not dare to say hi to the other person beside me, only shake hand with smile. I think that's just okay, well better than nothing.

Morning pass-by, Afternoon took it's place, I went to my relative house, well, it's not mainly for Eid Adha, my relative is getting a hataran ( gift to accept for married - not yet married ) , over there, there's this ustaz ( Islamic religious teacher - protector ) , He talked about the sentence of Saddam Hussein, I weren't able to took note of what he's saying but I get what's He trying to delivered to the guest that time.

From the the speech that the ustaz has had delivered, I finally understand one thing, well, according to my past study of Islamic civilization history.

Did Saddam does something wrong ?
According to the past, Iman Syafi'e ( Sunni Sect Iman ) was been captured because been thought to be a shia rebellion, almost all the shia who commit the revolt were punished, this kind of thing happen in Iraq, in order to save the huge amount of community of Iraq, Saddam excuted the rebels, and now Saddam was sentenced to death because of his action. Well, I don't really know the past, and I also don't know what had Saddam did in his nation, I will only leave the judgement to Allah.

but Do I think the court that sentenced Saddam is fair and just?
No.

and Have justice been preserved?
No.

Why does the a day before Eid Adha ( the day to remember Prophet Ibrahim's a.s sacrifice to obtain the bless of Allah ) chosen to be the day of the day Saddam was sentenced to death?
I have no idea, but this is truly mean that "they" are trying to test muslim again.

I also admired Saddam courage, that he remain calm even when He already knew that He's going to die soon, May Allah Bless His Soul, furthermore, even after He's been insult by worthless insect while been he is been hanging, He is still remain and cry for Syahadah. May Allah Bless His Soul. As a muslim and a sunni sect, I truly believe it is wrong to make bad of somebody or a group.

If Saddam was sentenced to death penalty, then there's no reason for those who commited the same act to be sentenced to death peanlty, the world witness more than what Saddam did, and yet, does justice has been preserved?

Great new day

Great? What's so great? It's Eid Adha today, oops, I thinks I get the wrong idea on the other post, oh well, nevermind.

For recap, the other day, Saddam Hussein was sentence to death, and death toll is increasing again, theres well know 2 genocidal in the world today, one of them died, the other live happily while looking the other is death. I really confuse, I don't know who is at fault here, when I think back, which group should I choose? It's a very difficult question. But yet, which one that really bring justice? and the funny thing is they said "justice has been preserved". What is justice then? If theres alot of murder not to mention genocidal out there killing infront of camera everyday without been put to court. I just don't know. Maybe it is the way the world does it's justice at the moment.

Other than that, the internet is changin rapidly, it's hard to keep-up this vast flowing world for sometimes, I really thinks theres yet to be change in this world. Let's see, Youtube make video blogging possible, Myspace make a person to be exploit, and the world is just the same as ever. I hate to thinks about this, theres nothing beneficial from this. and There is a new world brain trying to monopoly the knowledge. I just wondered, if this is the thing that we really need in this world, perhaps for the future that we may endure.

Can there be any space for us?

Nothing has changed much

Few years ago, I heard a speech, ergh maybe a seminar, He said "the retired person from the company often die fast". Why? "because,they ain't got anything to do". Considered to my situation now, probably I will end up like them.

I'm at home, doing nothing but to waste my father money, its kinda lame. I ain't got a job like my friends does, I wonder why I couldn't be like them, it's not like I can't but it's hard.

The only thing I does at home is write article(s), watch anime(s), be a forumer, sleep and eat. And the newest thing I done is blogging. I don't to end-up, worthless in the community.

Maybe I should plant a tree(s) for my source of oxygen, it's all thanks to global warming.
Or should I do stuff on the internet, It's hard, because I feel so sleepy at anytime(s) in a day.
Then I take a nap until sun fall down.

I feel like school is something that can drag me to feel life. I barely part from school, without school life was so "slow" to me. Maybe I should search for another source of energy.

Bytheway, it's eid adha today. Muslim all over the world is gathering at one of the holiest site in the world. I proud of being muslim. This shown that theres still hope for muslim unity and the khalifah system in the future. I just hope muslim in Malaysia know their on duty, its very sad to know how do the muslim in Malaysia are doing right now. I could only hope for hidayah(Guide to Straight Path from Allah).

Other than that, the internet seem so slow, I always surf to American line, well not to mention Irc server that located in America, after the underwater fiber optic cable failed - broken since it's so fragile, I wasn't able to do anything that I was normally does. It's like theres a invinsible barrier surrounding me.

I wonder why would they put the cable in the area where the risk for earth quake is valid. I couldn't understand, since the cable is an international joint-up project of many telecommunication company in southeast asia, why can't they understand this thing. Somemore, if it's a vital line, well at least shouldn't there be any backup line? It will be another 2 or 3 weeks until the line is fix.

Thinking I over do it this time, I wonder , or it's just me, so is it anyone else? My friend will be laughing out loud if He see me writing on a blog right now. Just hope google found me.