Coincident of Fate

Destined fate.

Coincident? or Fate? or maybe it is Coincident of Fate. But who know, I also don't know, just let it be.

Everytime, I think, Im getting far... far away, as much as I hate been distant from other, yet it is as much as I love to be distant from other. I just love it whenever I'm alone, but I tend to feel lonely, its like I'm needing somebody else around me to support me, but is that really what I want? I'm totally confuse.

It is probably just a coincident that I meet them, but then again I do believe in fate. My mind just struggling hard to think that why I always meet such people, is it because I'm just like them? I try to not admit it, but sometimes I do found some qualities resemble of me.

We are all alike.

Examination Week

My mind was just thinking hard. How stress can I be, its just an exam. Well its not just an exam, its an exam that will determine my future.

A night with intense pressure. Sudden words, abrupt my hope and spirit, not like I care, but why now? I don't really care at first, but my heart keep telling the opposite, why do I care? I know its going to end like this, I should have know it. I realize, I was been betrayed.

I couldn't study well, luckily the first day is just English Language. I try to regain new spirit and hope. I try to forget everything. I just hope I can... and it ended. I don't even care anymore.

Now, I can just accept the fact. I can no longer be the same. I will keep in mind that I'm not an enemy, the world is not my enemy. Whenever I faces difficulties, I must always return to Allah.

Adversity will only make me strong, as it teach me how to begin and end.

Her stare

As I walk.

I look around, to explore as I venture into alienated world. I do realize this is not my world. Its a must for me.

While looking at a corner, where the bulky phones lies, a girl covered by ill desired, captivated my eyes for a moment. At first, I could not recognize her, my mind was full of ill thought about her. But her eyes, was quite different, as much as shes afraid of something, she went pale, paused in her own world. She stared at me blurly as her eyes follows me. What could shes been thinking?

Then, again, we meet again. Its become so clear, shes a girl that I had known for years. Perhaps its a fate? how come I always end up meeting her, no its probably just a coincident, I just hope so.

Pity, sadly her voice could not reach me. How I wish I could, but I can no longer accept it, well its just hard for me to accept. Hopefull her life will be lite up, and shes will find her own way, the right way.

I just hate it.

I wonder.

People all around me, are just wanderer. We are just wanderer. We are all alike. We want to be understand, we want somebody to understand us. Its just frustrating. People seem just want to be selfish. I just hate it. Why can they just try to understand other people. Its easy. Simply by keep quite and observes other. Cant that be hard, can it?

They will never understand. Though, its sad, I think I better make my leave. I just wandering around. Looking across they sky wanting to be found. Perhap, someday, light will cover this emptiness with hope and honesty. I just hope it will happen.

Hey don't come back, cause it will only make my heart fill with hatred. Because I just hate it, sorry. Its not my way. I have my own life, I have my own way. Its just how I live my life. I'm sorry, because I just hate it.

What is ....?

Raya... Eid Mubarak. Okay you can eat and have fun now.
Exam... Final of Sem 1. Okay you can stress and tension now.
Holiday... 2 weeks long free(really?). Okay you can relax and sleep now.

Lets Make It Possible

Im going back,
Im going to take all that belong to me,
I know it,
Because its belong to me.

How come its hard?

Now, I know life is hard, So?
Life goes on. Simply live with it with smile. Lala

Sometimes, in sadness and despair, theres a light that will light up our life. Whats matter, its how we appreciate our life and live with it.

I heard this before, "It does not matter on how you were born, whats matter is how you live", we just have to live no matter what, because thats what we are for.

KML

okay, its just another experiment, nothing to be serious about.

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His life

I do remember,
A promise, everything going to be easy,
I know, but I'm not so sure,
Its just a false promise.

I went into deep thought,
My mind was blank, its filled with wisdom,
It remind me of who I was to be,
But its not really who I want to be.

An easy life, perhaps its just a dream,
A dream that only be reach with false hope,
Afterall, we can just keep hoping,
We are just a human.

A hope, that pass from a person to another,
Now, it pass to somebody that desired it not,
Why would he took all the burden for the sake of other?
He's alone are not capable.

Life is boredom,
Having a grunge way,
Not knowing the path,
Its an abstract pathway.

He do have a freedom to choose,
But its all just a talk,
Not even close to real world,
Can this world be honest for just a moment.

Somebody admire even idolize him,
Hes a man that not deserving at all,
Stop it, you hurting him alot,
He rather be forgotten than to let other despair.

Now that you know,
Why not just stop?
Thats all,
Thank you.

eh??? whats this... its just one of the possibilities.

lets try this,
a world with despair full with false hope.
we are still live in it.
life still go onwe are trying to change the future
its a light that leads somebody to enternal despair

Once a while,
i do think that my life is just that, no idea.
oh great, i dont think so lah
i afraid that i might make other despair,
i hope they can forget me.
Im nobody afterall.

can mind alone believe what its not capable of.
at the moment i can only express this heart.
i dont think that life is just what i want.
please be logical but logical alone stand on some basis, atleast with abit of mind.

care not but we are all alone.
i just like it be what it is.
now again, why are we care so much for this world.
everyday we hope for the best, something better out of nothing, we just human, we are trying our best but we are still human.
thing just keep repeating itself.

why why why!!! but i dont really carelah.
after life had end, not because the hope for light had gone, its just light dont choose somebody to be his.
adamant for future, are just suffering eternal forsaken.
thats how it should be, and its a... possibility of a life.

Astonishing

Sometimes, when we write, we thought it to be just normal but when people read, its probably the most plausible words.

We often thought that thing its just normal but thing was different when other look at it. Astonishing, it is perhaps the most wonderful event.

As we play along, the words sieve through our ear, its captivate our imagination of thought and laid rest in it, the dark world was then feel with hope and encouragement. Its the wisdom of words.

A man with a great words, are the one to be watch, he just alone talking, for there are abstract nature of him. Yet, words alone are not vivid proofs.

sign

We live, We hope for the best. We are the best but it doesnt mean our life are the best.

I been thinking why must we be bonded with fate. We are so sad because when something bad happen, when we meet some people and everything we desired not. But what can we do, its all ready our fate. It happen. We just have to accept it. We accepting it meaning we have faith to Oneness, we giving all ourselve to Him, and at the same we obey and work for the best and hope for the best.

The world of Mine

for some extent I feel as if i gone far away but further behind and left behind far away eventhough I had been in front for quite sometime, its probably it is I that don't know.

If it is my destiny then, I probably give it all to it but no theres room for me to change, in any ways possible. This world really need some changes. A world we live a world where we die.

A generation that was destined to be a leader, now are begin to corrupt, could it be the end. We could only hope for the best but can we change the world with our hand? No.

"Kerana Kita Bodoh, Kita dipinjak.." Its because our stupidy ppl look down at us. If only every body know each and each of our jobs and duties. Nothing could harm this fragile earth. but Sorry we live in this corrupt world.

I begin to reliaze see more deeper, I felt it is hard in here but sorry I could only work on it hard and try to be achievious, but I'm not victor.

How can theres such a thing as a perpect system? Do human trust a system than comman sense? Is it the right of democracy to shape the world? Why do enslave our self to a system made by human? Foolish of us. Greed.

Society that judge thing from their perspective, accept only what the society like and reject incommon, why do society act suprior to other? Eventhough their are all alike. What kind of comman sense is that.

Oh great. theres yet another plot but no one care, its just another plot. I don't know. Why do I write all this?

Its a great thing I had learnt here and its a good thing thing that I'm not there to be. Stress, I'm sorry matric is not for weak but for those who strive hard and smart.

Why we keep sending our children far away land, are things here not good enough? its been going on quite awhile already but no, nobody seem to know whats their duties.

Perspective

Malaysian Matriculation is hard!!! It is not for the weak students. But it is for the good students and hard working students. I can't cope with all this thing. If it is slow in progress I can still study slow and steady but no its hard to catch up with everything here.

ahh great I can't focus here. so then I can't write more.

Pathway

As time goes by, thing changed. I begin to wonder if i have done the right thing. Probably it's just my ego. Why would people do it? Human are strange creature after all.

Maybe, I abit biased toward Malaysian matriculation, it's just how I thought before.

If I goes for A level, and get a good grade, I can further my studies to oversea, and feel the various cultural exchange.

If I take STPM and ofcource get a good grade, I can have a much more potential than Malaysian matriculation, I'm a person who's see A and grade, a students might thought if they can get A and good grade, they can have good future, but it's a no and yes answer, theres nothing is so certain, but the only important thin is a knowledge.

On the other hand, if I take Malaysian matriculation, which I will someday InsyaAllah, I will only have limited choice of university, and I don't mean just a university, I want a top university.

Nowaday, eventhough, we are not in economic crisis, it's still hard to get a job, just like what happen in 1997/1998. Competition are everwhere, it's just too difficult for the less-educate person in this globalisation world. The adaptation of secularism and capitalism, make the poor even poorer.

Whats so good to praise materialism, if we forgot about dignity and faith. Why are we here on earth? As a muslim, We are here to flourish this world with Allah's guide, well, if I'm not mistaken.

Surely, we are not the one that justify other and the other are not the one who judge us. I think that just it, I don't know if what I wrote are right and I don't right about all thats written up there.

I wonder if I can use the internet after this. Thanks for making comments on my blog Hudzaifah, I will take note on the comment.

What lies ahead

Future, or past, it's all the same. People see thing different from one point to another. It's just how thing works.

At the moments, many seek a better future. I keep thinking whether or not it is what I asks for? Acctually, I don't really care. Just follow the flow of fate and it's gonna be fine, well thats just how my life does.

But I feel envy with my friend and the other, who try their best in life. I also want the best but what could I do? My friend want to get into top University in the world. and Me, huh? it's Malaysian matriculation, I won't go any far with that. Is there any room for me? Perhaps Harvard might be better choice, too bad I not a genius. Thus, all hopes gone.

No adsense

Yeah, for days weeks months and not yet a year, I removed my adsense from my humble blog, well just this one hehe. I don't really think adsense works well here. The ads that been shown here is not really interesting, so hows that will help me generate revenue? Well, nevermind. Here some I want to promote in exchange with the removal.

I'm sure many have heard about adsense, whenever somebody click they generate revenue according to the ads its shown. Adsense are proudly owned by Google.

Earn Money Through Google Adsense


There's other google's product, that is Mozilla Firefox, I don't really sure about whether or not its their product, but one thing I know that they are promoting it.

Mozilla Firefox

Theres another google's products, its not just one software its many, I don't really sure what all of it does, but I have Google Earth on this computer, a software that let me view the world from the space, but has some limited area of view.

Other Google's Tools

Thats how webmaster, bloggers and etc, make money with Google, the system works, when reach 100USD, a publisher can get his money through cheque on request.

Another words

More and More, it would never stop, for as long as human continue to live, there will always strugles for better future. Indeed, we are just a human, who are humble and loyal, but yet weak and very weak. The future probably is a vivid path, but yet there won't be easy way for that. Afterall, we are human.

I'm Not!

I think my friends misunderstood me. I don't how to act at certain time. Even to reply something might takes too long for me. It's because every words it's important to me, and if my words counts then I want it to be precise. I'm so sorry, probably I had lied (ergh is this word correct?), back stap and so on, but I'm not that bad, it's just because I'm a human. Human make mistake, who didn't? But the differences are we human learn and understand thing.

You failed!

NO, this is a failure... pls dont read! I said dont read this, skip it. its just something I put randomly on the internet.

Heres how...? what was that all about. I had no idea. What I want to write here.

I guess, the world had failed. Because of erghh... whats that ah? they call it some like domo.. damo.. damn... dermo... oh yeah its DEMOCRACY.

After.. successful failure... world have never learn.. How Evil is Democracy.

Let me see... 1st election start... people need to choose the leader.. yeah? what was the leader stuffs? Easy, you gain high popularity, you a leader... opps did I misread the dictionary again? Not really. How you gain power, its simple by vote of majority. Its doesnt matter who vote and who were voted. Its simply fair because everybody had a major trust on someone and thats just it.

How it fail the world. An ignorant vote for the wrong ppl, its just that simple. A vote matter. but can a voice matter much? What am I talking here. This is getting confuse all over again.

I need to resentences.

and Again? Why did democracy failed? For many years, for decades, humanity has been divided into etnicities, and Yet even after assimilation of etnicities, humanity is still divided. But its even divided, theres alot of religion today, theres alot of ideology today. and Humanity divided into many sub-sub-sub-sub category. Theres no and no kinship among humanity, even if theres a kinship, its just so fragile like the Ming's dynasty ceramic.

Heres how, according to democracy, the majority win, the minority follow, for as long as theres no kinship, theres no majority, yet people are more diveded through democracy, its democracy. Because its how democracy works. If its not because of democracy people wont have to struggle for power, wealth and influence.

What to do?

I don't know! At least not yet, probably sooner, InsyaAllah.

Recently, I were thinking about starting a new political blog(s). I felt so uncertain about the current political situation in Malaysia today. Furthermore, their are many in the net today. If I don't start, I'm afraid it's probably to late already.

Owh, I forgot, it's been long time since my last posts. Well, I were busy with works and so on, that is busy about life. Plus, I don't know what to blog. It's just impossible for me to write without computer. Okay, I know, this blog is boring.

But at the look of Malaysian blog phenomena today, I must says it's quite tard. Look here how some Malaysian blogger manipulating the main stream media to gain popularity. and LOL to some blogger, here some funny thing about Malaysian blogger;

blogger 1:Woah nobody come to my site oh.
blogger 2:That's no a problem, easy you go post any anti-government policy and constitution, or critic to make fuss and distrupt the public harmony. Sure lah the government will notice.
blogger 1:eh? lyk dat oso can eh?
blogger 2:can wat, tis is Malaysia, anything oso can Malaysia boleh.
blogger 1:I just did some very controversy posts, and my blog traffic is so high now, I bet I can make more money with this $$$.
blogger 2:See, what do I told you, in Malaysia so many anti-government, anti-Islam, anti-NEP(New Economic Policy), anti-Malay/Bumiputra and all sort of anti. We can use these people to make money for us and gain popularity.
blogger 1:Oh great, the government and the police noticed my blogger, I'm gonna be famous. Soon Malaysia will know my name.
blogger 2:Nice right, people now can respect you, since your name will be mention in newspaper, not just newspaper, but a main stream newspaper.
blogger 1:Damn, the police come and put me being bar under act ISA(Internal Security ACT). Damn, this is no democracy, this is a violation of human rights and freedom of speech.
blogger 2:Don't worry lah, Malaysian got their own human rights lawyers, these lawyers can help you wat, after you get out, you go post again, challenge the laws and the constitution again, now everybody know you, your critic probably notable in the world eyes.
blogger 1:Let's see what government can do to me, if I do this, I'm invinsible, no laws can stop me now.
blogger 2:LOL, keep up the good works for rakyat.

Comments:

Freedom of Speech, is a world wide phenomena, use primary to propagate certain subject to certain organization, groups, parties or individual, for certain interest or to protect certain interest. It's commonly use to bring justice in the public eyes, without this, political parties or such will never able to voices their disagreement and concern about certain subject. Thus, making it the most powerful tools to stop coruption, tyranical, discrimination and democracy.

New Economic Policy, is a Malaysia new economic policy, that is to protect and strenghten the interest of Malay/Bumiputra in participating and developing the economy of Malaysia. Well, it's start after the May 13 incident (it only happened in Kuala Lumpur), the government relook into the matter of mutual understanding among races and mutual share in economy and government power. Thus, the New Economic Policy was proposed by the government, because it's the only way, perhaps. Because the Malay/Bumiputra are poor and unable to stand on their own at that time, it's a plan to help the Malay/Bumiputra to join togather with other races to develop this nation.

Anti-Malay/Bumiputra, commonly centered by non-Malay/Bumiputra because they thought that by having special right toward Malay/Bumiputra meaning to distrupt the interest of non-Malay/Bumiputra.

Anti-Islam, easy says it's a Islamophobia. The afraid of Islam, everything about Islam is evil. Well, that's why, but Islam is not a religion that obey other, it's because We as a Muslim believe that We are the truth and bring Justice to the society. Sadly, some Malaysian (included some Muslim too) said that Islam being unjust and tyranically toward other religious follower. Ofcouse, I do think some people make this just an excuse to destroy Islam in Malaysia.

Usually, in order to win the heart of rakyat, politician, will make alot of janji or promises to the public, for example, I will build University for this town, the economy will grow, town people can gain benefic, theres more jobs to be offered and have a peaceful and enjoys cherish life everyday. But, sometimes, its just a promise, like they says, janji politik or political promise, it won't happen, it's just to win people heart and ofcouse to gain more vote. Because of these, you will find anti-government propagandas are quite strong in Malaysia today, probably and mostly among the poor citizen or the one that work hard in the morning just to eat some rice in the evening.

Malaysia? is a? secular nation? No, according to constitution that was agree by allies party and the government of British in London, there was NO SUCH THING as SECULAR in it, the term Islam was been stated as an OFFICIAL religion of MALAYA. Please noted, it's only official religion it doesn't mean Malaysia is an Islamic nation nor it is a Secular nation. Now, the problem is that the stupid lawyers(included some Muslim) wanting to declare this nation as a secular nation and reject any Islamic influences to the nation. Well, I'm totally confuse about it, I don't know how to help about it, it's just impossible. but it's not totally impossible, if we can bring forth all the Muslim in Malaysia unite, it won't be that possible. Please be noted, by doing this all the interest of other religion is safeguard and protected by laws and constitution, Islam is no what so ever mean to discriminate other religious especially people of the book (Christian and Judaism).

What a story there, right? These are the facts that almost the same on what's happening in Malaysia today, please stop feeding this clown, if you feed them, they will make even more stupid joke.

Note: The story and comments are my fundamental judgement only, it has no what so ever directed or linked to any organization, groups, parties or individual. Some facts are probably wrong and misjudge by me and Do Not Copy Paste whats written here, If you do so, it's under your responsibility.

Don't Read

Have you ever wish that, it's best not to know than to know?

If yes, is your answer, than don't read my blog. It's very bad for your mind and soul.

Nostalgia

I just couldn't bear, I couldn't stand it, my mind is fine but my heart isn't, my mind start thinking deep without my approval. I just could get it. It's the only thing that I want to forget. It keep repeating it's self to me. The more I look to the connector of the past, the more I fell to his traps. Much more likely it's going to eat me.

The past really hate me. or It's just me who hate the past.

I don't know. I'm not in dilemma.

Again?

Owh, look like I halted posting for quite sometimes already, sorry about that. Well if theres somebody who read my blog.

I noticed that, my writting containts many error and grammatically error. Even worst, it's sometimes mean nothing at all. Sorry about that. I will keep that just as it be, so it will remind me on how I was doing at that time.

Let's talk about whats going on...?

Not really, I still who I were. I still have not done what I should've done long time ago. Plus, its a bit hard for me to uses computer these day. It's getting frustrating. but Nevermind it's just okay.

Weird, I think, I should've alot of thing to says. but It's seem like always. I'm out of contants.

Frustrating

I can't take it anymore, I need to reformat this computer. Opening a server meaning opening a hole in my network. Nevermind.

I had enough with wikipedia, I mean, do those people over there know what they are writing? Over the time, I found that most wikipedia are using wikipedia for their own good. World domination? That's so absurd. How stupid can a person write on article base on ignorance writer? Yup but I do know, this kind of people won't have a peace life. Just hope.

Everything you write, it's you responsiblity, it's goes against somebody, it's going to against you someday.

Let's take this, wikipedia is not for everybody, it's only for those who can think right and do the right kind of thing. Well, nowaday even the ignorance can write, so what that's their point of view, wikipedia is for the natural, the right stuff only!

Do what you want, later, don't regret, for what you had done.

It's just a words

Man may desire for peace, but it is his destiny to fight. He cannot escape his fate to fight, and to die. So long as man retains his humanity, he will continue to fight.

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